Today at work...

so today i made this cheesy website design:


















and then basically spent all day making dumb little changes until it looked like this:

its so frustrating to just realize other peoples' visions of things. what annoys me most of all is the inefficiency, though.



Max just told me that he wants to leave this job. That is a terrifying thing. I guess it could work out of if Christian wants to keep me here, but i doubt he will because the main idea was for Max to train me and then i could help him with websites and production and all that. I also dont know how serious Max is about bailing on his business. but FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK. I really was counting on this. I know it'll be ok but i was just excited to just get wrapped up in something maybe boring but also stable and have time for my own stuff while making $$$ and learning killer skills. Jesus though. and Max has all this baggage about disapointing people because all he wants is to be liked but at this point he has just completely over-extended himself and is overwhelmed with it all and panicking about how he can possibly make everyday a little less miserable. Apparently business has gotten really bad in the past 3 weeks and everything that they thought would just keep coming and coming has just faded away so there's not even really work for me, let alone money for them. Sucks. Maybe now i will look for a job instead of a new home?

i know i want the real world and i guess this is it but c'mon. at least it is gorgeous here. that really is what's pulling me through. i also feel kindof zen in general right now, its all just been dreams and ideas that became a reality so recently that it almost isnt that big of a deal if everything gets taken away. i just need to figure it out. and i know i will.

i left work today to buy things for my bike so now i have a nice safe ride home to look forward to. adios for now.